*This post is from February 20th, 2012.*
This has by far been the longest two weeks of my life! It feels like time has stopped. I know I need to stop wishing my weeks away; before I know it, I will be sleep-deprived, delirious, and have a tiny person screaming at me. I guess I am rushing time because I want to see our little Nugget....so I can believe it! My first appointment was kind of a bummer: nothing to see and no positive assurance. However, my HCG levels lifted my spirits and we are hoping to see a little heartbeat on Thursday. As crazy as it sounds, I am not even sure how pregnant I really am! According to all the Due Date Calculators and my LMP, I should be be about six weeks today, but all the calculators are set to an "average cycle." Ironically, there is no such "average cycle." So, we will just have to wait and see what pops up on the ultrasound this time. Besides my bladder.
Honestly, I don't feel pregnant. I have heard other people say that they knew before they got the BFP (Big Fat Positive). Not me. I haven't had the first symptom. I probably should find a large piece of wood to knock on now. Check. I mean I have had a few itches, twitches, bloats, and aches here and there, but that is the extent of it. Another thing that is probably adding fuel to the fire is my obsession with the Baby Center Community Board. I am a member of the October 2012 Birth Club. So, I am constantly reading, analyzing, and comparing myself to other women and their pregnancies. This is silly because I know that no two pregnancies are alike. However, I have gotten some information about what to expect during doctor visits and other useful ideas and tips, but I am also constantly reading about blighted ovums, miscarriages, and other problems. So, it is hard not to think the worst.
I think once I see it for myself, I will be able to settle down and enjoy the ride! I can't wait until I can shout it from the rooftops. A few close friends and family know, but everyone else will have to wait. We are having a photo session on Saturday with Alycia Edgeman, and we will be slipping in a few pregnancy announcement photos. I can't wait! We have slacked in the professional picture area. The only ones we have are from our Wedding Day! Sad, I know. As soon as we (hopefully) get good news on Thursday, and photos back from the photographer, I can make it "Facebook Official!"
This has by far been the longest two weeks of my life! It feels like time has stopped. I know I need to stop wishing my weeks away; before I know it, I will be sleep-deprived, delirious, and have a tiny person screaming at me. I guess I am rushing time because I want to see our little Nugget....so I can believe it! My first appointment was kind of a bummer: nothing to see and no positive assurance. However, my HCG levels lifted my spirits and we are hoping to see a little heartbeat on Thursday. As crazy as it sounds, I am not even sure how pregnant I really am! According to all the Due Date Calculators and my LMP, I should be be about six weeks today, but all the calculators are set to an "average cycle." Ironically, there is no such "average cycle." So, we will just have to wait and see what pops up on the ultrasound this time. Besides my bladder.
Honestly, I don't feel pregnant. I have heard other people say that they knew before they got the BFP (Big Fat Positive). Not me. I haven't had the first symptom. I probably should find a large piece of wood to knock on now. Check. I mean I have had a few itches, twitches, bloats, and aches here and there, but that is the extent of it. Another thing that is probably adding fuel to the fire is my obsession with the Baby Center Community Board. I am a member of the October 2012 Birth Club. So, I am constantly reading, analyzing, and comparing myself to other women and their pregnancies. This is silly because I know that no two pregnancies are alike. However, I have gotten some information about what to expect during doctor visits and other useful ideas and tips, but I am also constantly reading about blighted ovums, miscarriages, and other problems. So, it is hard not to think the worst.
I think once I see it for myself, I will be able to settle down and enjoy the ride! I can't wait until I can shout it from the rooftops. A few close friends and family know, but everyone else will have to wait. We are having a photo session on Saturday with Alycia Edgeman, and we will be slipping in a few pregnancy announcement photos. I can't wait! We have slacked in the professional picture area. The only ones we have are from our Wedding Day! Sad, I know. As soon as we (hopefully) get good news on Thursday, and photos back from the photographer, I can make it "Facebook Official!"
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