39 Weeks

39 Weeks

Haddie is the size of a Watermelon

I cannot believe that this will be my last Weekly post! These thirty-nine weeks have flown by. Then again, I also feel like it has lasted forever because I was pregnant for half of the last school year, all Summer, and a month of the current school year. Sadly, I don't have too many interesting details for this post. Most of the excitement has already been shared in the 39 Week Appointment updates. I am sure I can find something to ramble about for a few minutes.

I feel like I have been in a fog this week. I still haven't wrapped my head around the fact we will have a baby, very soon. Or the fact that this means I will be in the hospital! Knock on wood, I have been pretty healthy all of my life: no stitches, broken bones, or serious sickness, etc. So, this will be my first time being a "patient." I have had minor day surgeries that are in and out, but nothing like this. As of now, my biggest fear is probably the IV. I have never had one in my hand, and it scares me! I have been doing some research on the other procedures I am expecting. Call me crazy, but I googled and surfed blogs reading other's Birth Stories of induction. Some say the Cervidil is horrible and traumatic. Others had no issues. It is crazy how the same experience can be so different for each person.

This week has also been an emotional one due to some things going on with close friends. Health issues, hospitals stays, and surgeries for one dear friend's husband. And the horrible thing called Cancer for another friend. I feel like I have just shut off my emotions in order to deal with everything going on: sadness, excitement, nervousness, anticipation, mourning, questioning, and concern. So, instead, I just have floated through this week in a haze. It is weird feeling to celebrate and prepare for a new life at the same time you are preparing for the loss of another.

Now that it is almost over, I have been looking back at my pregnancy and the choices I have made. It is funny to compare the ideas I had in my head of what choices I would make and what actually happened. Even when it comes to the "birth plan." Not that I actually even have one. Initially, I thought I would be the prenatal yoga, organic, and overly conscious prego. I wanted to be. I admire those that are. Sometimes, I even wish that I had been a little more like that. But in reality, I wasn't. Don't get me wrong, I took care of my self and did everything necessary for the health and safety of Haddie: prenatal vitamins, regular appointments, no alcohol, careful activities, etc. But, I also chowed down on McDonald's, I drank Route 44 Cokes from Sonic, and I did occasionally forget to take my prenatal vitamin. It is just funny how judgemental I was of other's until I was in that position. I just needed to take a minute and call myself out.

I have had some people ask about the blog. I plan to hang on to it. I will definitely be posting the Birth Story so I can complete her book. Afterwards, I am not really sure what will happen. The plan is to do (at least) a Monthly post on Haddie and all her milestones, but who knows. I really love that there is a program to transform the blog into a book. So, that is the motivating drive for me to post. To me, having all these posts in book form will be better than any "baby book."

I guess this is it! I have a template ready to plug in information once she is here to announce her arrival. Hopefully, it wont take me too long to adjust to Mommyhood and I can get her Birth Story written. Thanks for stopping by and keep us in your thoughts and prayers for the next few days!